ok so I don’t even know, I think God is putting it in my heart to audtion for JYP but I mean I’m not asian at all and not thin af and I’m not good enough for them to be like “whoa her voice is good we can over look her non asianness and other flaws” like damn and even if I do get in, will I ever debut? Will they just use me as a foreign novelty? Will netizens hate me because I’m “encroaching” on their kpop? I’m embarrased to even tell people “i would like to be a kpop star” because theyll think im a koreaboo or some shit or just be like “ha yeah right” maaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnn people are telling to go for it and whats the worst that could happen, they reject me? But i don’t know I just wanna be able to make people happy like my favorite groups have made me they just bring so much joy and i wanna do that too and preforming for people is just fun af ahhhhhhhhhhh
rant over